Crazy is What Crazy Does.. Or something along those lines.

Does anyone else ever feel like they are going crazy? 

Not the stressed out kind of crazy, the proper crazy. Where you start muttering to yourself, you see people waving at you or something out of the corner of your eye and then when you turn your head they're gone, and all of the sudden you here a muttering in your head that you cant control which leads to you muttering more to yourself to drown out those voices, or to keep a conversation going because you're enjoying those voices. And you start rambling in a blog post that no one is really reading but you feel good because the internet is big and maybe some one out there will read this and see it for the gigantic cry for help that it is (what are commas?). 

It's like I am in a kind of purgatory right now- not quite crazy, but not quite sane. 

Heaven would be sanity, and hell would be a complete 'loosing my mind' breakdown- if we want to bring a little 'fate'; and 'biblical-ness' into this conversation. And I don't mean a healthy break down*. A breakdown where it takes a tremendous amount of time and effort and a many of Therapists to make you resemble a shred of your old self once again.

This is kind of how I feel sometimes when I have to wake up in the morning.

Right now, I am smack dab in the middle. I'm not quite full fledge crazy but I am also not what I would consider to be insanely sane. 

I sound ridiculous.

Does anyone else ever feel like this?

Do full on 'crazy' people even realize they're 'crazy'? Or do they think that they are the normal ones? Or (if we go into full on inception mode) are the 'crazy' people the Sane ones, and the sane ones are the 'crazy' people?  If we go with what would seem to be the obvious answer and say that no, people who are actually 'crazy' do not realize they are 'crazy' then we could conclude that in order to say sane we/I would just have to continue to question my own sanity. 

(Please continue if you would like to enjoy some more word vomit.)

However, you could also assume that questioning your own sanity would lead to you going crazy. 

Or you would just begin to deny that you are crazy, therefore confirming that you have gone insane. 

These are the unfortunate loopholes I get myself into when the insomnia hits.  


*Yes, I do believe that there is such a thing as a healthy breakdown.

*A small Disclaimer: I understand that the term 'crazy' is not the political correct term for someone with mental illness. However, I am not a politically correct person so... there's that.